Photographs...

As you can see im really bored at home hahaz.... blogging twice in a dae hahaz... im DEAD BORED hahaz... and juz ate medicine my mum dug up somewhere hahaz... though im doubtful... but she's my mum.. i give her 99.9% of my trusts hahaz...

So now... feeling... really full from dinner... really bored from the "i stayed an entire 4 daes in my 4 room flat"... really amused/disgusted from an "interesting" phone conversation i've had... and really dorwsy coz i itnk the nedicine is taking effect hahaz... probably the reason y onli up till now i realised todae is 7th september... 8.26pm... 3Hrs, 34 minutes from my birthdae hahaz... i used to celelbrate my birthdae wif a party at my place... until i was primary 6 when i realised... well... no one would come hahaz... so i got really sick of parties and bdae celebrations since p6... maybe im scared, maybe im juz sick of it... now would rather spend my bdae quietly at home doing wad i enjoy the most... slack hahaz... also bcoz of all these experiences... i realised i trust my frens too easily... at times like this is really when u see who are your real frens... im glad im blessed wif a few in my life... at least i tink so... but im gifted in messing things up really bad... hahaz... but for tt im really sorry...

tho until now i still trust ppl vewi easily... guessed im stuck wif tt trait from my dad... besides the short thing hahaz... i sometime still feel unwanted maybe hahaz... and afraid to open up to ppl at certain times hahaz... perhaps to those only i feel extremely close enuf hahaz... like family... like my MSHS Buds... their like my older bros... taking care of me hahaz... i love tt... thx guys hahaz...

Anw... yesterdae i was looking at the many photos i haf in my room, my phone..., even my ipod hahaz ... or on my mum's table... and realised how eventful my life had been hahaz... OH NO!... i sound like im gonna die soon hahaz... anw... looking at those photos made me real happy... and made me feel much warmer inside... hahaz... no wonder i like taking pictures hahaz... i itnk everyone haf their fav pic... i haf mine too hahaz...

These are my best frens in NY.... coz we are all in choir... we experienced the same storms, same joy, same life together... somehow i feel this closeness is starting to disappear... especially from wad i've done... im sorry... and coz of the closeness we had... sometimes i find it harder to be wif them now hahaz... i really missed the times we had... but sometimes i would rather to be alone hahaz... im having mood swings... hahaz... but undenialbly they are still the closest of frens i ever had in my life... closer than anyone i was wif... maybe coz of the distance wif my other buds... no matter physical or non-physical hahaz... this photo sort of marked the biggest landmark we had experienced together hahaz... and brings up all sorts of memories i have stuck at the back of head...

and... pls dun send me msgs telling me to cheer up or wadever after reading this... im not suffering from depression or trying to die hahaz... yes i do feel stressed coz i haf like now weekend left to my prelims and im no where ready... juz feel vewi emotional abt photos hahaz... juz send me happy birthdae will do hahaz...

thx for being there for and wif me the last yr...