Hahaz... Sleepless Nights

Had problems sleeping last nite... i was still awake until the lights on the HDB corridor went off.... and dats ard 7... and dats how i know it rained at 7 this morning hahaz... Den i fell asleep all the way till 2 hahaz... my mum thinks im a pig... but in fact i had onli slept for 7 hrs...

Was thinking about plenty of things... every single detail that is going on in my life... every step i took... every step i should take... and every footprint and consequences i would eventually haf to face... should i continue? hahaz... was pondering on this for vewi long le... sometimes i feel that im not ready... and that its too much stress and consequences that comes along wif it... everything had changed... but i still miss the days before any of this started... where it was so much simpler and fun...

Everyone seemed to haf known... whether i had told them or not... somehow everytime i feel that i haf made a choice... more thoughts seem to flood in and make me ponder on the issue again.... maybe im really not ready for this... but its already too late... as much as i hope that things could return to the way it was... i know that its impossible... i took a step, left a trail, left a mark, something that will always be there...

I know all the consequences i could have to face... im feeling selfish... if i should do the right thing for myself, or do the right thing for everyone else, either way, its going to end up badly...

im reaching a milestone here... i haf no idea on wad i should be doing now... everything, i feel, is in a mess... too much responsibility for me to handle... im simply too simple to brace all of these happenings laying on me... i need help... but there is no one to talk to.... coz everyone is involved one way or another... and if i hurt them in any way... i simply haf no rights to be wif them again...

I was somehow prediciting wad will happen... i dun like wad i had seen

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KKz... Yesterdae went Kbox!! hahaz... theresa was damn high when she sees Hebe hahaz... vewi good... got someone like me hahaz... kkx... not bad gg wif them... was really fun... too bad nigel wasnt around... take care yeah!... get well soon!! :)

Suntec got alot of nice stuff i wanna buy... but theres the i$$ue... hope my mama strike 4d soon hahaz... its abt time hahaz... den i can do so much that i had always wanted to do!!... removing the fixatures in my room... shopping hahaz... IKEA.... the list goes on forever hahaz... but really hope to finish the top priorities first hahaz...

Oh Yeah!!....

HAPPY BIRTHDAE PRIVATE MA!!! :)

18 le hor hahaz... woo~ jia you... though we dun see each other that often le... but we'll still be buds no matter wad k hahaz... eh, tell me wad u wan for your present hahaz... haven buy yet hahaz... can give you 60 plus de budget... hahaz... but will be expecting ard there for mine hor hahaz... meet up soon k hahaz...

Todae is Live Earth rite... July 7 hahaz... 7 is such a nce number... no wonder GST now oso 7%.. So did you answer the call and wear green to show your support todae?... i did hor... my mummy and i went to NTUC and i unknowingly wore my green shorts and my mum wore her green-grey tanktop hahaz... so qiao...

hope can haf nice sleep tonite... will be on com for vewi long... finally fixing up my sis's blog for her... vewi long never do this kinda thing le... guess will take longer than usual hahaz...